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Nathan had to go to the ER on Saturday because of a fever. He'd been nursing this fever since Friday and though it was mild it wasn't going down so he had to go in and be given antibiotics. Friday morning he started out playing and happy but around 6:30 pm Sam and I noticed he was starting to lay around so we went and picked him up and took his temp. We called his doctor and since it was a low grade fever (99.5) they said to just keep an eye on it. So he slept well and in the morning he was still laying around and we took his temp again and it was up to 99.9 so we called and were told to bring him in and so we did.

Thankfully he got to come home that evening and Sunday he kind of relaxed around the house and his fever was back down. Monday he woke up in a great mood. It rained all day so we stayed in and played. It was Nathan, me and Peyton and we didn't watch TV we just played and had a great time. He'd slept very well the night before. I let him and Peyton get a three hour nap and before bed I realized that he hadn't cried or fussed once. The same thing today and this was despite the fact he has huge painful looking mouth sores!!!! Still no complaints from him. He took his medicine and went on about his little business! Such a trooper! I'll update more as things are constantly changing!

Dear Lord,

Thank you that Nathan's fever didn't get too high and that the antibiotics were able to quickly get it back under control with no side effects. Thank you for his good days when he's able to enjoy just being a three year old. And thank you so much for Peyton who remains so constant despite everything going on around her. She really knows how to keep Nathan on his toes unlike me and Sam and I know Nathan enjoys her little company :-)

In Jesus Name
Amen

Listening to God

Sam and I prayed for guidance throughout Nathan's pregnancy on whether I should keep working or be home full time. In the end we felt strongly that God was leading us in the direction of having me home and so that's what we decided. We didn't consult many people on this decision. We were living off of two incomes and we were able to pay our bills just fine but whenever we did the math on just one income it wasn't adding up. I remember sending Sam a message from my desk showing how our bills would outweigh our income to the tune of over $400 if I were to quit and I remember Sam telling me to quit adding up numbers because it truly didn't make sense why God would want us to do this. We truly stepped out on faith for the first time.

The entire first year was ROUGH. We had to learn a totally different way of living. I've never been frugal because truthfully I never had to be but suddenly I had to learn and it was not easy for me to learn it. But without going into detail I can proudly say that we paid off more bills during that first year and a half then we ever did on two salaries it was still VERY hard to do and there were a quite a few bumps in the road, but we did it. By the time Peyton was born Sam had been blessed with increases at work and truthfully we were back to living pretty good. Oh and we learned how to live without credit cards (thank you so much Dave Ramsey!!!!!!!).

Why am I telling you this? Well I'm trying to set the scene I guess. It'd take all day to write a post on the nitty gritty details of that first year and a half. And truthfully we didn't know why God lead us in this direction and allowed us to have such hardships but neither Sam nor myself will ever deny the fact that it's what we felt God wanted us to do. I caught a lot of slack for being at home and it wasn't even because of what we were going through financially. Truthfully at the time we didn't tell anyone how hard that financial adjustment was. It wasn't until we were financially stable that we began sharing it a little. I caught a lot of slack because staying home in this day is really against the norm.

Now I can't argue whether a woman should work or not. In this day in age two incomes are almost needed to stay afloat. I understand that and with all the criticism I was getting I couldn't explain to people that this is truly what I felt called to do. And it was ironic that God lead us in this direction. I got my Bachelors in Computer Information Systems and for years after college I worked jobs I could care less about and then the week I got the job I always wanted, I found out I was pregnant with Nathan and then the internal struggle began. I loved my job, I loved my boss and the people I worked with. It was a great environment to work in. So why would God want me to leave it behind?

But being home has been the most fulfilling thing for me. Just this summer Sam and I were talking and looking back over the rough financial period we went through and I remember him saying, he'd do it all over again and I agreed with him. And again I couldn't explain to people that this is what God called me to do. I'm not talking about women even because when I would say that people would jump down my throat with the whole women's lib talk. I'm talking about me, LaToya - Sam and I prayed on it and being home is what I was meant to do.

Then Nathan gets cancer in January...You see God wasn't blindsided by Nathan's illness. Sam and I were but I truly believe God wasn't. Sam and I wondered why God would allow us to go through such a rough financial period and honestly before Nathan's cancer we were sailing. Life was great. Our bills were in order, we even have a savings! We figured out how to do this without struggling and then cancer. Sam and I don't understand much about why Nathan got cancer and a lot of things we'll never understand but we truly feel we understand this part of it.

"Aren't you glad you're home?" I've heard that a few times since Nathan's diagnosis and I don't think people can ever realize how glad I am that we listened to God's guidance back then. Had Nathan's cancer hit now, I would've had to quit my job immediately to take care of him. The only thing smooth about this whole diagnosis is that I was home already. We'd already set up this house around Sam's income and we'd had three years to make this set up work and it's been working well. Sam and I don't want to imagine how it would've been if we'd got a cancer diagnosis and on top of that tried now to live on one income, though we've talked about it and can't imagine how that would've worked.

This post isn't to say that every mother is to quit their job right now and go home. It also isn't suggesting that every mom is home because their child has the possibility of getting an illness in the future. It's just to say if you're ever in a situation where you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is leading you in a direction (and sometimes that direction is uncomfortable) then don't be afraid to do what God's calling you to do.

I still don't like the fact that Nathan has cancer but truly there are situations like these where I have to give thanks. We didn't have to figure out who was going to take Nathan to his appointments, I didn't have to worry about a job, or losing income suddenly and for that I can't tell you how thankful Sam and I are. Quite a few of the families on Nathan's floor have one parent at home, either the mom or dad and as one mom told me "you have to be." And she's so right but sadly the economy is such that still others have to work and I know they feel torn and you do see young children and babies left alone. I remember the first week Nathan was in the hospital seeing a young girl around 11 pm roaming the halls. She was no more than 7 but she was there alone and I remember a nurse telling her "honey you have to stay in your room." I also remember seeing a 1 year old sitting behind the nurses station alone. One week when Nathan stayed he had a young room mate and I remember the doctors telling him they couldn't do anything until his mother got there and I remember this young child calling her telling her she had to come back out to the hospital. And let me stress to you these aren't bad people necessarily. Of course sadly there are cases of neglect but you can't just assume that's the case every time you see a child left alone. You don't know if it's a single parent home, or if the parents have to work. A lot of these people LOVE their children and it hurts them deeply to have to leave them on the cancer floor (or anywhere in the hospital I'm sure) but they truly have to work or have other children at home with no where to put them etc. and they need a lot of prayer.

Dear Lord,

I've been doing a ton of complaining lately and for that I'm sorry. But Lord I am thankful. I can complain all I want about having to go to these appointments with Nathan and it is hard to go, but Lord I'm sorry for not realizing the blessing in me being able to go. Lord you positioned Sam and me to be able to be there, every time Nathan has to go to the hospital we can take him. And Lord I never have to worry about leaving him alone to be somewhere else. When Sam and I found out Nathan was sick I didn't have to call and explain to anyone or report to anyone, you put me in a position to be able to concentrate on our son and his care. Lord forgive me for not acknowledging this sooner.

Lord thank you that my mother is home and Peyton's able to be with her and my father. Lord I'm comforted knowing beyond a shadow of a doubt that they'll protect her in the same manner Sam and I would-with their very lives if need be. Thank you for Sam's manager being so supportive of Sam in this situation. Thank you for the flexibility he has at work.

You worked this out Lord and I thank you so much.

Lord I pray for the families that have to leave their children to handle other obligations for whatever reason. Some of these families don't want to do this and I know it has to hurt and who knows the criticism they may get from people who aren't in their shoes. Lord my heart goes out to them, it's hard enough having such a sick child but Lord I can't imagine the pain and guilt they must feel. Lord please comfort them and send them help. Lord they really need help. Before Nathan's cancer I didn't know about this world. I knew children with cancer were out there but I never knew what the families went through and I'm learning more and more every day.

Please continue to blanket Nathan with your comfort. Lord those first set of scans are coming up and I pray that this tumor goes away, in the mean time ease his pain and give him peace.

In Jesus Name

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Amen

He Still Has a Chance

So Nathan couldn't get chemo this week. He was supposed to spend the night in the hospital but he had a mouth full of sores (which is a side affect from all of this medication). So his doctor didn't want him to have his chemo because one of the chemo drugs will make his existing mouth sores worse and more will come. So they want to give him several days so his mouth sores can heal. So he basically got a week off and because his blood counts were good the doctors gave the go ahead for him to participate in activities today so we decided to stop in at his old playgroup.

Now Nathan hasn't been to his playgroup in a long time. I'd talked to one of the grandmothers, who goes with her granddaughters, in February so the entire playgroup was already aware of Nathan's cancer. Nathan was so happy when we got in the parking lot and he walked in smiling, but when we got in the room he was a little hesitant to join the other children. In the past he would run straight to the group and start playing, but today he just kind of hung in the middle of the room staring, they'd rearranged the room so part of his apprehension could have been because everything looked different. One of the coordinators immediately grabbed his hand and took him over to the kitchen area to play and his hesitancy wore off really quick. It was so nice, he got to play with the water table (it had oatmeal in it the last time we were there) and he played in the kitchen area and just had a great time and didn't fuss when playtime was over.

One mom came up to me, Nathan and her son Mateo played together a lot when we used to come regularly, and she gave me a huge hug and asked how Sam and I were doing. She then gave me her home phone number and told me to call her and feel free to drop off Peyton if we ever needed a sitter and she stressed that she meant it and wasn't just talking. She then shared with me about a friend who's daughter is a cancer survivor and then she told me that she lost a child herself in between the two children she has (she had a three year old and an almost 1 year old). I wasn't expecting that. It's something how we see people so often and never know their backgrounds. Of course until now there never would've been a reason to bring it up.

She said her heart goes out to me and people in my situation who are dealing with a sick child because she understands the hurt. Her son was born without a brain. She said she knew when he was in the womb that he didn't develop one but her and her husband carried him anyway keeping hope alive that somehow the situation would be changed, but in the end he was born with out a brain and ultimately didn't survive. I asked her how she coped. I mean if you can meet this woman, she has so much joy and I've been around her a lot in the past at the playgroup and I can honestly say she's a wonderful mother, full of energy and I've truly never seen her down and I just had to ask how she got through it. And she told me she just had to take it one day at a time. She stressed how hard it was and how much she wrestled with how God could allow this to happen to a baby but eventually she found peace. Then she really ministered to me, I don't know if she knows how much but she started saying things that were in my head but I hadn't verbalized to anyone, but she said some things I'd been holding inside.

First she told me try not to worry too much about my other child. She said she knows a situation like this can cause a me to stress out over something happening to Peyton but don't do that, just trust God with her. It was like she was reading my mind. I pray for Peyton like I never prayed for her before and that's not necessarily a bad thing, but I know some of it comes out of fear at times. I always ask God to blanket her with protection but now I'm very specific. I ask him to shield her from disease, from being kidnapped, from a fire, from car accidents, from falling down the steps, from peanut butter (hey I don't know if she's allergic or not yet), bee stings...seriously the list goes on and on but I plead with God to keep her intact now more than I ever have because I'm secretly not sure I can take something happening to another one of my children and when she said that it struck a nerve and made me realize I need to relax in this area and trust Christ.

Second and this kind of ties into the first. She said don't be afraid to have more children when the time is right. And when I do, she said don't be afraid you're not going to love them as much as the children I already have and too don't fear that they're going to be sick or handicapped, just trust God. Now this was important to me, for those of you who know Sam and me really well know that we really wanted two more children but after Nathan's cancer diagnosis, I gave up hope on that happening for so many reasons, it saddens me but I have so many fears over that. What if Nathan goes into remission and then comes out of remission and I'm pregnant or have a newborn, then how am I going to balance going to the hospital and taking care of a baby? Also I've thought, what if we were to lose Nathan, then could I really welcome a new child after the loss of another one and of course I thought what if the new baby gets sick. I've been ashamed to admit that on here and truthfully I've only discussed that with three people before this and I couldn't explain why I felt this way but when this mom spoke to me today it was if she read my mind and it comforted me knowing I'm not the only one who've had these similar fears. So I've placed the more children decision in God's hands, the time is not right, now of course, but it's up to him if we're to have more or not.

And lastly she reminded me that Nathan still has a chance and not to forget that. She said her and her husband knew when she was carrying their child that he really didn't stand a chance and she said she agonized over that but she said Nathan does. As long as he's here and as long as he's getting his chemo and he's had radiation and he's going to doctors appointments, then God is giving him a chance and she told me to keep fighting and hold on to that chance that God is giving him.

Dear Lord,

Did you set up this meeting with this mom today? It's like you were speaking to me through her. I've been keeping so much of what she said bottled up inside because I really couldn't explain to anyone why I felt that way or was having these thoughts and she really touched on a lot without me even saying a word.

Lord I've observed her in the past and have always admired her interactions with her little ones in the playgroup. I can't relate to what she's been through, Nathan's still here and I haven't experienced the loss of a child. She experienced such a huge loss in a very sad way but still she came up and ministered and shared it with me today. And all the many times we've been around each other, who knew that you'd use her in this way. Not only that, she has such obvious joy. I know what she went through was hard, she emphasized that but she also emphasized joy and as long as I've known her the joy is what I've always seen.

Lord I can't help but serve and love you. Even in difficult times you have these ways of bringing comfort. I'm constantly reminded that you haven't left. You promised you'd never leave me or forsake me and you've been true to your word. When I feel like quitting you send a reminder that you're still here. When I feel like you're far away you let me know that you're close. When I feel as if I'm alone, you remind me that I'm not.

Lord you remembered Hannah when she prayed and blessed her with Samuel, you remembered Noah in the ark and sent a wind to recede the waters, you heard the groaning of the Israelites and remembered your covenant with Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, you remembered Rachel and opened her womb, Lord you love Nathan and even though at times I feel that things are spiraling out of control you have a way of reminding me that you're still on your post and haven't left, you remember him, I know it.

Lord I know joy will come again someday. I know peace will be restored, no matter what but at times I need reminding of who you are and that you never forget. Thank you so much for giving Nathan a chance.

In Jesus Name
Amen

Another Day

I had to call Nathan's Oncologist at 2 am Monday morning. Beginning on Saturday Nathan started acting really fussy and it reached a peak Monday morning. He woke up inconsolable , he had a mouth sore which is a common side effect from his chemo but in addition to that he just seemed uncomfortable so I decided to call. He didn't have a fever which was a good thing so I gave him something for pain and rocked him back to sleep after talking to his Oncologist.

All day Monday I was on the phone back and forth with the Oncology team giving "status updates" on Nathan's progress. My parents had come up to help me clean. My house is horribly behind...we spent all day cleaning just the kitchen. During the time we were cleaning I noticed Nathan had a rash on his face and showed it to my parents and my friend who was over, a rash could possibly symbolize the onset of an infection. Since he didn't have a fever the doctors said it was ok for him to wait and come in today. So at 9 am this morning I took him to in to see his doctor.

Thankfully when he woke up this morning the rash was better and his voice is starting to come back which is a good thing. He did however have a low grade fever when we checked into the doctors office but it wasn't enough that he had to be hospitalized. We had to keep an eye on him and keep checking it periodically, and now he's asleep and it hasn't gone up, and I'm praying it doesn't go up tonight or he will have to be hospitalized (he'll be staying overnight again this week).

Dear Lord,

Please take this cancer from Nathan and give us strength.

In Jesus name
Amen

I Just Want to Be Happy

Sometimes I truthfully wonder if life will ever be the same. Cancer is such an emotional roller coaster and I don't know if I'm really happy, I've just learned to cope. I hope happiness comes back soon. My Aunt who lost her son to cancer said that joy will come again one day. I think I may put in a call to her for more encouragement.

The problem is that the days are so unpredictable. One day Nathan's feeling great and then the next he's sick again. Nothing can be planned, really. I can say I'll meet someone somewhere and then wake up the next morning to a sick child and I just can't.

I have a wonderful little girl who'll be two next month and I have to remember to get her away daily for one on one time. Her vocabulary is exploding and it's really fun to talk to her and she brings me a ton of joy. In all of the sadness it's hard to find time to laugh and just have fun, but there's a ton of laughter when we're together. I truly feel that cancer has robbed Sam and me of just being able to enjoy our children, but we try hard to make all of our time together enjoyable.

A date night for Sam and me isn't in the near future. Nathan isn't verbal so we can't really leave him. It's too touch and go, we don't know the effect the radiation has had on his throat but he doesn't have a voice at all, he's forever congested and if you don't understand his gestures it can be a huge problem because if he's sick and need medical attention, you'll have to understand him to be able to help him. I know a time will come when he can be left for a little while in someone's care but now isn't the time.

Cancer just stinks. It's like a nightmare, we want to escape it so bad but it's always in our face. There's days when he's laughing and just so happy and it gives us so much hope and you go to sleep happy, then at 4:00 am he wakes up crying inconsolable and then is back sick again for several days. He doesn't seem to be at peace himself and though we're honest with him we don't discuss all the nitty gritty details with him. His hospital stay is coming up and he got really sick from the chemo the last time and since he's not well again, I'm guessing he'll get sick again.

I saw on the news that scientist are coming out with new ideas on how to cure cancer. Of course these ideas have to go through so much before they become approved and it's frustrating to watch because I want them implemented now. If they're that good, then I want them implemented as soon as possible so Nathan can benefit from them.

I've been staying up late again because my mind is just so full. It's weird because it's not that I can't sleep, if I chose to I could go to bed at 10 and sleep all night. But then all of my dreams lately center around hospital related stuff. They're not really morbid or anything but I'm still sick of them, so I just choose to stay up. I read Psalms every night before bed and Sam and I pray together and then I pull out my phone and watch happy movies until my eyes close on their own.

I'm just so sick of seeing Nathan so sick. I'm frustrated that I can't alleviate his pain. I do feel angry at times still(this is one of those times if you can't tell) and I take it to God. I just want Nathan's pain to stop. I want this year to end already. I want Nathan to be well and happy. We all feel robbed! I so wanted to be a mother and enjoy motherhood and I don't understand why God allowed this to happen and more important why did it have to happen to Nathan and not me.

Sam cut Nathan's hair for the last time in February, it was starting to come out so we decided to cut it instead of watching it fall out. And we saved it, I truthfully forgot to save his baby hair from his first haircut but we did save his hair in February and I came across the bag of hair today and I just pulled it out and held it in my hand. It's was so thick, I just can't believe the majority of it is gone and won't be back for a long time, it just made me sad I guess.

Nathan was also diagnosed with having Apraxia which is another big problem, though not as big as cancer. I debated whether I was going to talk about the Apraxia on this blog, truthfully I don't feel like discussing it in conversation right now, but it's not a fun diagnosis either, though after already having a cancer diagnosis we took this diagnosis pretty well.

It's a lot going on in this household and I truthfully don't look forward to a lot anymore. I just want to hear cancer free, that's all I'm waiting to hear is cancer free and pray that one day Nathan himself will be able to stand in front of you and give a powerful testimony as to what God can do. I pray that he'll speak eloquently when that day comes. I draw a lot of encouragement from Exodus 4:10-11, remember when God spoke to Moses and Moses said to Him:

"...O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.

And God replied

¹¹ ..."Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD ?

Well I'm going to go start my night routine, it felt really good to write tonight. I know this post was kind of all over the place, I just kinda wrote my thoughts as they are in my head right now.

God Bless

Nathan's been laughing

Yes you read that title correctly!!!!! We'd gotten a few smiles along the way but truthfully we haven't heard Nathan laugh in over a month! But that all changed this week!

Monday, was Nathan's last day on the steroid he'd been taking. In addition to all of the other side effects I'd mentioned before, another steroid side effect was intense mood swings. His child life specialist described it as feeling like you have PMS literally around the clock (yeah not fun ladies). But anyway they'd began weening him off of it and Monday was the last day and on Tuesday his demeanor started changing. He actually started playing again!!!!!! Before Nathan was diagnosed with cancer him and Peyton would go into the toy box and pull everything out, well it happened today for the first time in a LONG time. I didn't even mind cleaning up the mess they made.

Then came the laughing!!!! I mean laughing so hard he was doubled over! We haven't heard that sound coming from him in quite awhile. He's been smiling almost constantly and playing with Peyton around the clock. Today they were on the floor next to each other laughing hysterically!!!

He's also started sleeping better. Sam and I were getting up with him 5 to 6 times a night. This morning when we woke up we asked each other how many times the other got up and the answer was just once (we'd both gotten up to tend to him). But we were blown away that it was the only time he called to us. Sometimes one of us is so tired we don't hear the other get up so we don't always know until we count it up in the morning and yes, we only got up with him once last night so he's sleeping better!!!!!!

When he went for his chemo yesterday the doctors and nurses were also happy to see him in such a good mood, because he's been down for awhile now.

I'm also glad to report that he's not on any pain medication right now!!! Yes that's right! For now the pain medications have stopped.

Now next week the Ear Nose Throat (ENT) team will have a look down his throat again. Unfortunately Nathan still doesn't have a voice, everything that comes out of him is extremely strained and very high pitched so they have to check and see what damage the radiation possibly did to his vocal cords. He's laughing and it's just the most pleasant sound to us no matter how it comes out but we want to hear his voice getting better so the ENT will have a look this week.

Dear Lord

THANK YOU!!!!!!! Thank you so much for this week. Lord thank you for Nathan's laughter and the joy in him. He seems happy this week and we're so thankful for that.

Thank you so much that he's able to play and even run!!!! Lord his smile is the most beautiful sight to us right now. Thank you for the amount of time him and Peyton are spending with each other, just running and laughing out loud.

Lord I know we got a lot ahead still, but I'm so very thankful for these intermittent times of happiness that you still allow us to have!!!!

In Jesus Name
Amen

Wendi

Sometimes the compassion in strangers really amazes me. Nathan had speech therapy on Wednesday and when we came out there was another mom and her son waiting for Nathan's speech therapist. So the little boy went back for his appointment and I was lingering at the front desk filling out paper work and the mother asked me if Nathan was healing from surgery. Now let me back up a little I think I mentioned in previous posts that Nathan has obvious facial burns from his radiation. Unfortunately when we go out in public people usually gawk at him but never ask what happened. At first it was really hard to take this reaction and at times it still is but I'd made up my mind that if someone was bold enough to ask I was going to tell them, but truthfully I never thought anyone would ask.

So anyway this mom asked and I told her no and explained that his burns were from radiation treatment and he has cancer. Her reaction caught me off guard though. I'm used to the general reaction of "I'm sorry to hear that" or "I'll pray for you" but this lady paused and tears just started streaming down her face and she called Nathan over to her and looked at him face to face and said "Nathan buddy I'm going to be praying for you." I was blown away at the level of compassion this mom felt for Nathan, a total stranger to her. She then asked how I was holding up and I could hear the genuine concern in her voice. So I told her the entire story and she listened and complimented Nathan on being such a strong little boy and she told me over and over how much she'd be praying.

I talked to her for quite awhile. Her name is Wendi and she has a 13 year old daughter who is really sick right now as well. She told me the name of the disorder (it's psychological in nature) and I apologize for not being able to remember it but she said it causes her to have convulsions and seizures. At times she blacks out and at other times she literally destroys the home. Wendi told me "it's nothing compared to cancer" but I could see the hurt in her face and in the way she reacted to Nathan's cancer diagnosis and it's huge. My heart goes out to her, I don't like comparing diseases and I tell people all the time not to do that, when something is wrong with your child it hurts, bad. This mom is really going through a lot and she and her family are really hurting. She said she's had to take a leave of absence to take care of her daughter and it's taking a huge toll on the entire family (her and her husband have 3 children). Her child has told her several times that she just wants to die to take all of the pain away (she has a lot of physical pain as well).

Now this mom told me this after awhile of talking. Wendi's main concern was for Nathan and her tears were because she hated hearing of a chronic diagnosis for such a young child and as we got talking she shared with me about her little girl. We talked so long that Nathan and I stayed the duration of her son's appointment. She then told her son "this is Nathan and we're going to pray for him."

Dear Lord,

I come to you tonight praying for Wendi. Lord I don't know what this mom is going through. Lord I can't imagine what her family is going through because I know it has to be affecting the entire family.

Lord please heal this child, remove the physical pain and take away the seizures, Lord please stop her from blacking out and lashing out. Lord to hear a 13 year old child desires death just breaks my heart. Lord I don't understand psychological problems but you do. Lord remove whatever it is inside of her that is causing her to do this.

Lord restore peace in Wendi's home. I know she mentioned prayer but now a days that doesn't always mean the person is praying to you or is a believer in you. I don't want to assume, so Lord I pray for her salvation. I'll be running into her every week due to our childrens' appointments, give me the right words to say - or at least I assume I will, forgive me for not questioning when I had the opportunity since next week isn't promised.

Lord, Wendi is hurting, it's so evident that this is really hurting her to see her little girl go through such a rough period and she said she feels helpless. Lord please remove whatever it is that is ailing this child.

Lord I pray for Wendi's relationship with her husband and her other children please help them all be able to stick together.

Lord bring other people into her life who know you as well. Bring Christian doctors in her daughters life. Lord provide many opportunities for your Word to be heard by them.

Lord thank you for allowing me to meet her.

In Jesus Name
Amen