Interesting article

Ok so I stole this post from another blog I just stumbled up on. It's very interesting, although the author wrote it about herself dealing with breast cancer, as a mother of a child with cancer I can relate to a TON of stuff on this list and I'm sure my friends at the hospital would agree with it.

The last few weeks have been pretty hard and burn out stage has arrived. I've been running like crazy. Nathan's blood counts have been low so he can't go out in public and truthfully it'll probably be like this until the end of his treatment.

I can't just take Nathan to the store anymore so I have to find time to do the grocery shopping when Sam's not working so I can leave him, lately Sam has been trying to get that out of the way early Sunday morning and on top of that I have to find time to cook. The house pretty much stays trashed with a pile of clean clothes in the living room because I don't really have time (or the energy for that matter) to fold them.

With Apraxia the therapy is pretty intense, I can't explain how hard it really is to correct this. Nathan is doing so well though but the road is going to be pretty long.

The Oncologist wants him to go to physical therapy and truthfully I'm trying to figure out how I can squeeze that into an already busy schedule.

Tomorrow I have to drive an hour both ways and then get back in time to run Nathan to his appointment, only to wake up and go to the hospital again on Thursday.

I've gotten invited to several things in these upcoming weeks and believe me I'd like to come but truthfully I'm exhausted, Nathan has been waking at night so we're not getting sleep and with all the running Sam and I do (almost everyday we have to be somewhere now) I'm just truly exhausted so I have to say no to everything right now outside of any activity I can find that Nathan can go to.

Dear Lord,

I'm thinking of Psalm 23 where King David says; "He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,
³ he restores my soul"
Lord I need to find those green pastures and still waters and I really need my soul restored.
The day tomorrow is going to be long again and truthfully I want to just cancel everything I have to do but unfortunately everything I have to do HAS to be done.
Lord I just ask for strength. I'm sitting here trying to finish something Nathan needs for tomorrow but don't even feel like doing it. I just need strength. Help me to stay awake and alert on the road tomorrow. Give me energy only you can give.
Please comfort Nathan, heal his little body and help him with his speech. Please continue to give me creative ideas as to how I can help him more and thank you so much for his wonderful therapist. He still gets really frustrated at times, please give Sam and me wisdom so we can help ease that frustration.
Please put a hedge around Peyton. Thank you so much for her and for that fact she's in such good health right now. I thank you for her wonderful little personality as well as Nathan's.
Lord please give Sam strength as he has a ton on his plate as well at work and at home.
In Jesus Name
Amen